Don't know how many people are like me an extremely restless soul, when you are stuck in the middle, you are desperately looking for a way out!
Its really hard to feel content when you find some flaws in your life. I am happy with everything I have, except my JOB! My boring work and pessimistic working environment and soft management, I WANT A WAY OUT PLEASE!
A lot of my colleagues, surprisingly happy with what they're doing (at least look like) for years and love to get stuck, but I definitely do not want to join the team. I love challenges and a job gives me motive to go to work early each day, a job excites me every morning to get up. This one, I wish I can sleep in all the time and just avoid it. Do I hate it? To be honest, not, its just annoying that nothing hasn't happened for nearly a year, is that just me or every others feel the same? After a while, I start disliking what I'm doing, which actually I'm quite good at.
Having said that, I am very happy with my life, I have a great hubby who cares about me 24/7, loving families which never give me a hard time, our little home that we can grow whatever we like, a little puppy that brings a bit noise in this house, and a big PLUS, a baby on the way, just makes no sense if I feel upset about anything!
I think right now I have too much to think and get myself stuck in the middle.....and I'm looking forward to whatever challenges in front of me!
When there's no motives, find one! When there's no challenge, create one!!
Sunday 10 November 2013
Wednesday 19 June 2013
HAVING EVERYTHING...
Can anyone define "having everything"?
A friend of mine, Lady W was having a discussion with me, or you can say gossiping about how girlfriends think about each other. Basically, we were a bit bitchy and didn't really give any space for us to be impartial.
"I realised C girl (lets be a little considerate, so not mention any name) became a bit envy, or I can say 'jealous' about other friends" she said.
"What do you mean?" I can see where the conversation go, since I've been having this feeling for a while, just need to wait till someone confirm that I'm not paranoid.
"Say, she starts having hard feeling about friends who used to be at the same starting point, and then move on her life without any hesitation, however, she's still parking at the same place, especially her personal life."
I smiled, and I understood exactly what she was saying. "So I was not thinking too much huh? and I know that's how she thinks about.....ME."
W looked at me, surprised that I made the right guess. "Com'on, we've known each other for years, not hard."I laughed. "I'm not offended, but I sometime just slightly wish we can think more positively about ourselves. Why you always have to compare?"
"Because you have EVERYTHING!" W said out loud.
I actually had nothing to say, because I felt a bit flattered as well as puzzled.
How do you define " having everything"? And eventually think someone fit that box. I'm happy someone in my life ticked that box for me, while I'm still unknowing about my own life.
Just because you think someone has things you want, you can say that person has everything? And is it really necessary to feel jealous, and try to hide yourself from expressing how you truly think about friends, so you can feel better.....for now? Maybe friends can't genuinely feel happy for each other, but TRUE friends can.
All I want to say is don't be stupid, just stop for a second and rethink what you have at the moment, cherish them and you'll realise how much you have in your life. If jealousy hits, just move on your life, and don't look back, you'll be amazed how far you can go.
That moment, you have everything!
A friend of mine, Lady W was having a discussion with me, or you can say gossiping about how girlfriends think about each other. Basically, we were a bit bitchy and didn't really give any space for us to be impartial.
"I realised C girl (lets be a little considerate, so not mention any name) became a bit envy, or I can say 'jealous' about other friends" she said.
"What do you mean?" I can see where the conversation go, since I've been having this feeling for a while, just need to wait till someone confirm that I'm not paranoid.
"Say, she starts having hard feeling about friends who used to be at the same starting point, and then move on her life without any hesitation, however, she's still parking at the same place, especially her personal life."
I smiled, and I understood exactly what she was saying. "So I was not thinking too much huh? and I know that's how she thinks about.....ME."
W looked at me, surprised that I made the right guess. "Com'on, we've known each other for years, not hard."I laughed. "I'm not offended, but I sometime just slightly wish we can think more positively about ourselves. Why you always have to compare?"
"Because you have EVERYTHING!" W said out loud.
I actually had nothing to say, because I felt a bit flattered as well as puzzled.
How do you define " having everything"? And eventually think someone fit that box. I'm happy someone in my life ticked that box for me, while I'm still unknowing about my own life.
Just because you think someone has things you want, you can say that person has everything? And is it really necessary to feel jealous, and try to hide yourself from expressing how you truly think about friends, so you can feel better.....for now? Maybe friends can't genuinely feel happy for each other, but TRUE friends can.
All I want to say is don't be stupid, just stop for a second and rethink what you have at the moment, cherish them and you'll realise how much you have in your life. If jealousy hits, just move on your life, and don't look back, you'll be amazed how far you can go.
That moment, you have everything!
Tuesday 15 January 2013
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
2013!!!!! NEW YEAR!!!!!! And of course resolutions!
Haven't got much time list all my greedy wishes but I do have couple of them lined up in my mind 24/7. It was a hectic and restless year for me in 2012. Changing job, choosing a different career, hunting house, slowing down my old business.......many many such stuff makes my life pretty busy and starts forgetting writing.
The reason I named my blog Black and White unknown, is because this is the way I think about everyday life. Its like a puzzle with many faces, can be two extreme color, or else, nobody knows. And that makes life interesting.
I haven't realized that its been a few weeks since I blogged last time. Now, it's in the middle of Jan already, and I think about my New year resolutions, restlessness starts working in my heart again. When you have a plan, you just want to get into it and see the result. You're afraid of wasting time and challenging the patience. I feel that another year begins and there's not much happening yet, how come? I have two minds talking in my head at the moment. One says " you have to hurry up and speed up!" while another calmly correcting "what's the rush? Clear your mind and move forward step by step."
Ok, one of my very important resolutions: BE MORE PATIENT!
Haven't got much time list all my greedy wishes but I do have couple of them lined up in my mind 24/7. It was a hectic and restless year for me in 2012. Changing job, choosing a different career, hunting house, slowing down my old business.......many many such stuff makes my life pretty busy and starts forgetting writing.
The reason I named my blog Black and White unknown, is because this is the way I think about everyday life. Its like a puzzle with many faces, can be two extreme color, or else, nobody knows. And that makes life interesting.
I haven't realized that its been a few weeks since I blogged last time. Now, it's in the middle of Jan already, and I think about my New year resolutions, restlessness starts working in my heart again. When you have a plan, you just want to get into it and see the result. You're afraid of wasting time and challenging the patience. I feel that another year begins and there's not much happening yet, how come? I have two minds talking in my head at the moment. One says " you have to hurry up and speed up!" while another calmly correcting "what's the rush? Clear your mind and move forward step by step."
Ok, one of my very important resolutions: BE MORE PATIENT!
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