Don't know how many people are like me an extremely restless soul, when you are stuck in the middle, you are desperately looking for a way out!
Its really hard to feel content when you find some flaws in your life. I am happy with everything I have, except my JOB! My boring work and pessimistic working environment and soft management, I WANT A WAY OUT PLEASE!
A lot of my colleagues, surprisingly happy with what they're doing (at least look like) for years and love to get stuck, but I definitely do not want to join the team. I love challenges and a job gives me motive to go to work early each day, a job excites me every morning to get up. This one, I wish I can sleep in all the time and just avoid it. Do I hate it? To be honest, not, its just annoying that nothing hasn't happened for nearly a year, is that just me or every others feel the same? After a while, I start disliking what I'm doing, which actually I'm quite good at.
Having said that, I am very happy with my life, I have a great hubby who cares about me 24/7, loving families which never give me a hard time, our little home that we can grow whatever we like, a little puppy that brings a bit noise in this house, and a big PLUS, a baby on the way, just makes no sense if I feel upset about anything!
I think right now I have too much to think and get myself stuck in the middle.....and I'm looking forward to whatever challenges in front of me!
When there's no motives, find one! When there's no challenge, create one!!
Sunday 10 November 2013
Wednesday 19 June 2013
HAVING EVERYTHING...
Can anyone define "having everything"?
A friend of mine, Lady W was having a discussion with me, or you can say gossiping about how girlfriends think about each other. Basically, we were a bit bitchy and didn't really give any space for us to be impartial.
"I realised C girl (lets be a little considerate, so not mention any name) became a bit envy, or I can say 'jealous' about other friends" she said.
"What do you mean?" I can see where the conversation go, since I've been having this feeling for a while, just need to wait till someone confirm that I'm not paranoid.
"Say, she starts having hard feeling about friends who used to be at the same starting point, and then move on her life without any hesitation, however, she's still parking at the same place, especially her personal life."
I smiled, and I understood exactly what she was saying. "So I was not thinking too much huh? and I know that's how she thinks about.....ME."
W looked at me, surprised that I made the right guess. "Com'on, we've known each other for years, not hard."I laughed. "I'm not offended, but I sometime just slightly wish we can think more positively about ourselves. Why you always have to compare?"
"Because you have EVERYTHING!" W said out loud.
I actually had nothing to say, because I felt a bit flattered as well as puzzled.
How do you define " having everything"? And eventually think someone fit that box. I'm happy someone in my life ticked that box for me, while I'm still unknowing about my own life.
Just because you think someone has things you want, you can say that person has everything? And is it really necessary to feel jealous, and try to hide yourself from expressing how you truly think about friends, so you can feel better.....for now? Maybe friends can't genuinely feel happy for each other, but TRUE friends can.
All I want to say is don't be stupid, just stop for a second and rethink what you have at the moment, cherish them and you'll realise how much you have in your life. If jealousy hits, just move on your life, and don't look back, you'll be amazed how far you can go.
That moment, you have everything!
A friend of mine, Lady W was having a discussion with me, or you can say gossiping about how girlfriends think about each other. Basically, we were a bit bitchy and didn't really give any space for us to be impartial.
"I realised C girl (lets be a little considerate, so not mention any name) became a bit envy, or I can say 'jealous' about other friends" she said.
"What do you mean?" I can see where the conversation go, since I've been having this feeling for a while, just need to wait till someone confirm that I'm not paranoid.
"Say, she starts having hard feeling about friends who used to be at the same starting point, and then move on her life without any hesitation, however, she's still parking at the same place, especially her personal life."
I smiled, and I understood exactly what she was saying. "So I was not thinking too much huh? and I know that's how she thinks about.....ME."
W looked at me, surprised that I made the right guess. "Com'on, we've known each other for years, not hard."I laughed. "I'm not offended, but I sometime just slightly wish we can think more positively about ourselves. Why you always have to compare?"
"Because you have EVERYTHING!" W said out loud.
I actually had nothing to say, because I felt a bit flattered as well as puzzled.
How do you define " having everything"? And eventually think someone fit that box. I'm happy someone in my life ticked that box for me, while I'm still unknowing about my own life.
Just because you think someone has things you want, you can say that person has everything? And is it really necessary to feel jealous, and try to hide yourself from expressing how you truly think about friends, so you can feel better.....for now? Maybe friends can't genuinely feel happy for each other, but TRUE friends can.
All I want to say is don't be stupid, just stop for a second and rethink what you have at the moment, cherish them and you'll realise how much you have in your life. If jealousy hits, just move on your life, and don't look back, you'll be amazed how far you can go.
That moment, you have everything!
Tuesday 15 January 2013
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
2013!!!!! NEW YEAR!!!!!! And of course resolutions!
Haven't got much time list all my greedy wishes but I do have couple of them lined up in my mind 24/7. It was a hectic and restless year for me in 2012. Changing job, choosing a different career, hunting house, slowing down my old business.......many many such stuff makes my life pretty busy and starts forgetting writing.
The reason I named my blog Black and White unknown, is because this is the way I think about everyday life. Its like a puzzle with many faces, can be two extreme color, or else, nobody knows. And that makes life interesting.
I haven't realized that its been a few weeks since I blogged last time. Now, it's in the middle of Jan already, and I think about my New year resolutions, restlessness starts working in my heart again. When you have a plan, you just want to get into it and see the result. You're afraid of wasting time and challenging the patience. I feel that another year begins and there's not much happening yet, how come? I have two minds talking in my head at the moment. One says " you have to hurry up and speed up!" while another calmly correcting "what's the rush? Clear your mind and move forward step by step."
Ok, one of my very important resolutions: BE MORE PATIENT!
Haven't got much time list all my greedy wishes but I do have couple of them lined up in my mind 24/7. It was a hectic and restless year for me in 2012. Changing job, choosing a different career, hunting house, slowing down my old business.......many many such stuff makes my life pretty busy and starts forgetting writing.
The reason I named my blog Black and White unknown, is because this is the way I think about everyday life. Its like a puzzle with many faces, can be two extreme color, or else, nobody knows. And that makes life interesting.
I haven't realized that its been a few weeks since I blogged last time. Now, it's in the middle of Jan already, and I think about my New year resolutions, restlessness starts working in my heart again. When you have a plan, you just want to get into it and see the result. You're afraid of wasting time and challenging the patience. I feel that another year begins and there's not much happening yet, how come? I have two minds talking in my head at the moment. One says " you have to hurry up and speed up!" while another calmly correcting "what's the rush? Clear your mind and move forward step by step."
Ok, one of my very important resolutions: BE MORE PATIENT!
Thursday 22 November 2012
Its all about ideas...
House hunting is a very tricky thing to do. I have so many ideas of how to dress up our first home, but I still have to go through all the hazzle to get one first.
Well, I became quite addicted to Pinterest recently, which give me quite a few creative minds, I pin them and drag them into my borad, mix and match all the small ideas I have in my brain.
My smart hubby was happy that I found a new hobby and annoyed at the same time that I check out my phone 24/7. I find myself getting so interested in looking into these pictures and imagine how our new home will be looking like.
He said " its a cute thing but a girly thing to pin." I responded " yes it is but I am having so much fun doing it and its always nice to have options, especially for women." He smiled and compromised, Pin the sweet images might be a bit girly, but absorbing from the intelligence all over the world can be quite enjoyable. It doesn't matter whether you have a purpose or not.
Well, I became quite addicted to Pinterest recently, which give me quite a few creative minds, I pin them and drag them into my borad, mix and match all the small ideas I have in my brain.
My smart hubby was happy that I found a new hobby and annoyed at the same time that I check out my phone 24/7. I find myself getting so interested in looking into these pictures and imagine how our new home will be looking like.
He said " its a cute thing but a girly thing to pin." I responded " yes it is but I am having so much fun doing it and its always nice to have options, especially for women." He smiled and compromised, Pin the sweet images might be a bit girly, but absorbing from the intelligence all over the world can be quite enjoyable. It doesn't matter whether you have a purpose or not.
A cute door with bright color is always what I have wanted...prefer either red or blue though :)
Growing my own herb garden in my future home is one of my little dreams...probably find somewhere bigger than the egg shell :P
Oh my, I love these tiny but mighty ideas, and life is all about mixture of ideas.....
So before I have something new to tell, ciao!
xx
BW
Friday 9 November 2012
Enjoy the peace...
Not everyone loves coffee, but if you do, it won't be hard to choose your favorite cafe. Mine is called the Banff, a sweet cozy place where I treat as my living room.
Saturday morning, sunny, the clock was pointing at 11:30am. After a busy week, I deserve some sleep-in. Hunger woke me up and my smart hubby was away, thought about what's for brekkie and the Banff was for sure my first choice.
I couldn't remember when was last time I sat in a cafe in the morning enjoying my meal and eavesdropping the conversations.
"Can I take the order?" a red hair waitress approached me.
" Sure. A long black and a French toast, with syrup on the top. That'a all." My phone only had 4% of battery, so I had nothing to entertain myself expect observing what's happening around me, which is another of my favorite things.
A lady in her early 70 near the window was talking to a young girl sitting opposite to her, guess she's her daughter; next to them, a mid-age guy was having his peaceful morning drinking a large latte and enjoying a full plate of egg on toast, plus reading the newspaper. That young girl went out and left her mom sitting by herself finishing her coffee.
" Must be something in today's news, you look quite concerned. " She smiled at that guy while she was talking to him. " Oh, sorry. Yes, it was something, but that's news, always too serious and negative, I didn't notice I was concerning about it though, haha." He replied, politely, then got back to his paper.
The music in the cafe was getting loud, I start having difficulty to hear how the conversation go, ironically. But, I was having fun watching two strangers talking to each other, and feeling at ease. It seems like she was telling her reason why she was in the coffee shop this morning, and something to do with her family; then she passed a piece of paper to him to read, looks like that paper is quite important. He read that letter and started discussing with her, he began telling her about his story.
I was pleased to see how friendly and unguarded people can be when there's nothing to be taken advantage of but relaxation.
The weather outside was still great, sunlight hit the glass, which lighted up the whole coffee house. My late morning breakfast was great, I just love the combination of bitter and sweet; however, what attracted me even more was that peaceful vibe of the place.
While so many things happen in every corner all around the world, I love my sunny morning, and I enjoy the peace.
Saturday morning, sunny, the clock was pointing at 11:30am. After a busy week, I deserve some sleep-in. Hunger woke me up and my smart hubby was away, thought about what's for brekkie and the Banff was for sure my first choice.
I couldn't remember when was last time I sat in a cafe in the morning enjoying my meal and eavesdropping the conversations.
"Can I take the order?" a red hair waitress approached me.
" Sure. A long black and a French toast, with syrup on the top. That'a all." My phone only had 4% of battery, so I had nothing to entertain myself expect observing what's happening around me, which is another of my favorite things.
A lady in her early 70 near the window was talking to a young girl sitting opposite to her, guess she's her daughter; next to them, a mid-age guy was having his peaceful morning drinking a large latte and enjoying a full plate of egg on toast, plus reading the newspaper. That young girl went out and left her mom sitting by herself finishing her coffee.
" Must be something in today's news, you look quite concerned. " She smiled at that guy while she was talking to him. " Oh, sorry. Yes, it was something, but that's news, always too serious and negative, I didn't notice I was concerning about it though, haha." He replied, politely, then got back to his paper.
The music in the cafe was getting loud, I start having difficulty to hear how the conversation go, ironically. But, I was having fun watching two strangers talking to each other, and feeling at ease. It seems like she was telling her reason why she was in the coffee shop this morning, and something to do with her family; then she passed a piece of paper to him to read, looks like that paper is quite important. He read that letter and started discussing with her, he began telling her about his story.
I was pleased to see how friendly and unguarded people can be when there's nothing to be taken advantage of but relaxation.
The weather outside was still great, sunlight hit the glass, which lighted up the whole coffee house. My late morning breakfast was great, I just love the combination of bitter and sweet; however, what attracted me even more was that peaceful vibe of the place.
While so many things happen in every corner all around the world, I love my sunny morning, and I enjoy the peace.
Monday 5 November 2012
What a funny day
Today's melbournian weather is just too odd, clouds all over the sky, but not a single drop, humid like crazy, " just rain! Please!!" I wanna say.
Sitting in my fluffy couch back home today, unlike last year, we went to the race, the famously known " Melbourne cup". Its a great feeling to have a day off, don't really have any plan this year, enjoy doing nothing, as many others said:" this is how a holiday suppose to be like."
I was thinking of talking about something interesting, which popped out my mind 30 mins ago; ironically, I forgot how to log in my blog, and it took about 30mins till I finally figured this out with the help of my smart hubby. Grumpiness and moody were all over my face in a second. At that moment, I completely had no idea what I wanted to write about.
Honestly speaking, its challenging to find another person who is as impatient as me, I know that but still am always amazed by it, in a bad way though. Reading my last post, I realized that haven't been blogged for over 3 months might be the reason why I forgot the password. " Just calm down a bit you!" I told myself.
Funny memory and stubborn impatience make me count myself lucky that I have my beloved and very sweet hubby.
Anyway, most of the time, I would feel uncomfortable if I forget what I wanted to say, but today, its a holiday for god sake, don't bother. What a funny day, I just want to have some fun and relaxation with my smart hubby.
Happy Melbourne cup day!
Sitting in my fluffy couch back home today, unlike last year, we went to the race, the famously known " Melbourne cup". Its a great feeling to have a day off, don't really have any plan this year, enjoy doing nothing, as many others said:" this is how a holiday suppose to be like."
I was thinking of talking about something interesting, which popped out my mind 30 mins ago; ironically, I forgot how to log in my blog, and it took about 30mins till I finally figured this out with the help of my smart hubby. Grumpiness and moody were all over my face in a second. At that moment, I completely had no idea what I wanted to write about.
Honestly speaking, its challenging to find another person who is as impatient as me, I know that but still am always amazed by it, in a bad way though. Reading my last post, I realized that haven't been blogged for over 3 months might be the reason why I forgot the password. " Just calm down a bit you!" I told myself.
Funny memory and stubborn impatience make me count myself lucky that I have my beloved and very sweet hubby.
Anyway, most of the time, I would feel uncomfortable if I forget what I wanted to say, but today, its a holiday for god sake, don't bother. What a funny day, I just want to have some fun and relaxation with my smart hubby.
Happy Melbourne cup day!
Wednesday 1 August 2012
The end and the beginning.....
Monday, a new day for the new week, and almost the end of this month. Time flies so fast that when you realize there's actually 31days in this month, you feel that 31st day is like a bonus.
I remember colleagues were all asking me what's my plan for the weekend, and now its the next week already. I didn't do much on weekend, which was quite nice. Peacefully and quietly spending the relaxation time with my smart hubby, then went for a mid-night Batman movie in IMAX. Arrived home at 3am on Sunday morning, slept till 11 without feeling guilty, then jogged to the city, caught up with some book reading sitting in a cafe in the park with him. These 48 precious hours were filled with those trifle staff in life, all I can say is "How wonderful!"
Today, the first of August, had a chance catching up with a friend for some window shopping. She's worked all her life till now. I was listening to this interesting friends nagging about her charity work and worries of starting full time job some day. "You worry too much my dear. "I said. "Well, yes I am a bit afraid, but after a year doing charity job, you might wonder whether you can be as tough as before." She answered and smiled. I know she was not completely joking. "I quit wondering, you never know, you just have to keep looking."I said whatever in my mind.
"Are you lost?"She suddenly asked me.
I paused, and in that second, the only response was saying:"Yes, I guess."
But I believe everyone has the moment that you feel confused and lost, not anyone was born with strong sense of direction. We're all learning on the way. Challenging, but that makes life more fun, because it creates stories. Do not lose the patience and belief, just like there is the end of the month, so does the new beginning.
I remember colleagues were all asking me what's my plan for the weekend, and now its the next week already. I didn't do much on weekend, which was quite nice. Peacefully and quietly spending the relaxation time with my smart hubby, then went for a mid-night Batman movie in IMAX. Arrived home at 3am on Sunday morning, slept till 11 without feeling guilty, then jogged to the city, caught up with some book reading sitting in a cafe in the park with him. These 48 precious hours were filled with those trifle staff in life, all I can say is "How wonderful!"
Today, the first of August, had a chance catching up with a friend for some window shopping. She's worked all her life till now. I was listening to this interesting friends nagging about her charity work and worries of starting full time job some day. "You worry too much my dear. "I said. "Well, yes I am a bit afraid, but after a year doing charity job, you might wonder whether you can be as tough as before." She answered and smiled. I know she was not completely joking. "I quit wondering, you never know, you just have to keep looking."I said whatever in my mind.
"Are you lost?"She suddenly asked me.
I paused, and in that second, the only response was saying:"Yes, I guess."
But I believe everyone has the moment that you feel confused and lost, not anyone was born with strong sense of direction. We're all learning on the way. Challenging, but that makes life more fun, because it creates stories. Do not lose the patience and belief, just like there is the end of the month, so does the new beginning.
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